what's freaking wrong?

i dont know where to start from or anything. but if you feel that i have been staring coldly at you, i have not. i'm just tired, so maybe that look was misinterpret? i still regard all of you as my friends. thanks to my girls, i relised that it's enough to have few quality friends rather thn having many friends who wont be there.

anw, i hate liars. i talked to you, means i forgive, but it doesn't mean i forget. once a piece of glass is shattered, no matter what you try to glue it back, th cracks will still be there, it'll still be obvious.

went for l4d 2 with th guys tday aft sch for awhile. finally completed th final round, th fuel one. omg laaa. super hard. went to town to buy yz's present. yup. th sales girl is nice with good service, i'll go back if i wanna get anything! recently, th sales girls i meet all friendly one eh. Singapore's quality IS going up. =D

it's killing me!

icas-.-

idk why this time round i dont have th mood to study for my ica, micro done, afa studied, stats studied, but management, i really dont have to mood to study for it. can someone help pls?! omg. th paper is on monday!

actually, idk why i feel more & more emo nowadays. like srsly. that day kt talked to me, yup. i'll definitely turn back to that bubbly me when i start hanging out more with them! but go where find time?! omg.

yes, i have a perfect life, great family doting on me, giving me everything i need and i want. great friends like vivian, kt, joanna, jeannie & yinhui etc. but! smth IS missing. what is it? not boyf definitely, i dont want one now. not exactly, but no time for one. so.. what is missing? sigh

sorry guys.

today's blog post is to apologise to SH & co. i'm sorry if i created troubles for you girls. i feel that sometimes i just cant click because our topics is diff, just hope you girls are not angry or what because i dont mean anything. you girls are not spare tyre or what, i left cos it's my prob. i just cant fit in. sorry. thanks for understanding, i tried calling, wanted to apologise, but.. just hope you girls will read this post. although we cant be in th same clique, just hope we'll still be friends.

love is a lie

YOU DONT REALLY LOVE ME. NO, YOU DONT.

poly life? hmm

seriously, i dont really like poly life. why? because i miss my secondary school friends. look, it's not about th friends, it's bout th work load, but life still have to go on.

actually, aft Ben's chalet, there're many things i've realised, nv play with someone who cant play. i've alr apologised & did what i shld, talk to me if you want, if not, it's ok. i srsly feel kinda left out with th current click at times. idk if it's me or what. but if there's anything with me that you all dont like.. pls tell me. ya? i'll appreciate.

was talking to kaiting, and i realised how long we haven't met. esp ern2. miss those days. i've repeated this many times in my blog. still, i feel best crying in front of my family and you girls. sometimes, i want a boyf, sometimes i dont.

i did tell ser guan before, that sometimes, having a boyf is good, because no matter what you wanna do, boyf will always do. there're always th good and bad pts of having a boyf. well, th advantages of "no"s still wins "yes".

it's been a long time since i've blogged, and there're many things, i just dont know where to start from. sometimes, i wished thr was someone in this class whom i can share my feelings and thoughts with, but there ain't a confidant i have. sigh. th workload i have is seriously killing me.

hm, SU's been kinda busy, enjoying doing work, but i feel guilty because it's my first time doing club liaison, but th response is really really bad. i know it's not my fault, but i cant help but feel bad. sigh. and everyone's falling sick! get well soooooooon.!

what to do?

hm, confused. i feel like giving you a suprise, but hm.. i dont wish to regret that decision of mine. should i? should i not? dont like to see you with others, but at th same time, i dont know what i really want. trust? sorry i cant. i cant seem to trust any guys.

what's wrong with me. omg

it seems as though i'm changing, i'm different from before, i dont seem to be as crazy as before, just dont wish to talk. not tired, not anything. but i seriously dont know why. guys are not meant to be trusted, not that i have a boyf, but, even guys who are wooing me & th guy i like. cant be trusted.

someone1, told me, NS coming, cant get tgt. someone2, told me, dont contact for th moment. someone3, cant be trusted too, told me he like me? haha. i think just crap aft what happened in sch tday. just fuck off my life. really really really.